Excuse me while I chew myself out!!

So this post today is really just for me. You are welcome to read it but I really need to chew myself out. I am really lacking in motivation and am need of a butt kicking.  Feel free to help me out by leaving a comment.

Corrine, what the heck are you doing? Do you remember that you signed up to run 26.2 miles?  Yes that is a freaking long way. You signed up you paid the money and you are going to run this whole race. Don't you remember the last 26.2 miles that you ran? You felt like total crap. Do you really want to feel this way again?

Come on I know that waking up before 5:30 is hard but it is possible. There are hundreds of other people that do it daily. For Pete's sake your husband gets up at 4:30am (that's right 4:30) to get his run in before he goes to work. What the heck is your excuse?  Get the freak up and out of bed you lazy bones. You know that if you put it off life is going to get in the way. You know like today when you woke up to snow and you had four kids that were staying home from school. I think I am going to just start kicking your butt from now on.. Seriously girl how tough are you?

And while we are at it can you please just put the cookies down?  Ya I know that you really like them and they are pretty dang awesome. (you should know you made them) However, you don't need to eat all of them in the same day. Remember you have to carry that butt you are developing 26.2 miles.

Ok, ok, I will give you some credit you have been getting all your running workouts in and for this I do applaud you. I was really proud of you for waking up early last Saturday so you could run 14 miles in the dark by yourself. This just shows you that you can do hard things. Now pick it up or the sweep up wagon is going to be picking you up along the race course.

One more thing. You are a good runner so shoot for the stars and make you goals happen.

 You pinned this for a reason now get up and put in the work girl. You only have two months go and get it.

Like Dorothy says " Find your strong"

Sincerely yourself.

Week one down. How did it go?

Well I know that all of you (like 5 of you) that read this blog are just dying to know how my first week of no sugar went. I have to say I am really proud of myself. This past week I had the never ending cold. I swear everyday I woke up I thouht I am going to feel better today and by 9am I could definetly tell I was not going to feel better today. This happend everyday. Today is the first day that I can actually say I feel better. I also had aunt flow stop by for the week. Every month that she stops by I tell you chocolate is all I can think about. However, I managed to fight the sugar cravings all week. I was so proud of myself. Now thank you thank you for your applause, but let me tell you I did make a mistake. You see Saturday afternoon the sugar craving was HUGE!!!! I fought it off with little cutie oranges and whiney text messages to my sister. I thought I had it made until the kids asked for something sweet. As I was grabbing them a cookie out of habit I took a bite. OH CRAP!! Here I thought I had messed up my whole two weeks. I ate the cookie. It was weird though. It didn't taste as good as I wanted it to and I was fine with just having one. Sunday I did let myself have a break and I had desseret with the family.

Now some might look at this and think she failed. She didn't make it two whole weeks. At first I have to admit I did feel that way. I thought how weak am I that I can't go without this for two whole weeks. Then on Sunday (the best day of the week I think) I started to change my thinking. We women are so dang hard on ourselves. We tend to only see the negative things that we do and negate the good things we do. We are so dang critical of ourselves. I had dessert Sunday night and I was proud of myself. You see never have I gone a whole week being as sugar free as I could be. I made it through the week even when I felt like total crap. I even got all mty running workouts in. I ran 10 miles Saturday morning. I easily could have just said I don't feel good I am going to start over next week, but no I stuck to it. I did it. I decided that in reality it is more realistic to try my hardest to eat healthy most of the time like Monday -Friday and try to keep my sugar as low as possible. I should try harder to fill myself with whole natural good foods. Then when the weekend comes it will be okay to allow myself a treat. It all goes back to that thing moderation.

This last week in my mind was a success. I made it and I proved to myself that I can go without sugar and a treat everyday. So, my new goal for this week is to plan my meals in advance, eat as little sugar through the week as I can, and allow myself a treat and not feel guilty at all.

 We women can be hard on ourselves Because of this I wanted to share this video with you.  Some of you may already have seen it or heard it. I love it and I think it is something we can all use a reminder of.  I give you the challenge this week to lighten up on yourself and give yourself some credit. You deserve it. Remeber who you are and that you have great potential.

Yesterday was day one sugar free!!

So I started yesterday with my no sugar free for two weeks. Now let me be clear I am allowing natural occuring sugars like those found in fruit and veggies. For the next two weeks I am trying to avoid refined sugar and added sugar that they put in all types of food. I am hoping by going sugar free for two weeks I can prove to myself that I don't need that "treat" and that I can learn to teach myself that one small treat a day is enough or maybe choose to not even have  "treat".  I am hoping to teach myself how to lower the amount of sugar I take in on a daily basis.

So, I have to say day one wasn't that bad. There are already things that I can see that will benefit me from taking on this challenge.
1. The first thing I had to tackle was breakfast. I don't like milk very much so I have been having chocolate milk in the morning. Most days this is my drink after working out. (I have read many things about how chocolate milk is good after a workout) I guess you could say in a way this has become my morning cup of coffee even though I don't drink coffee. It was weird at first not making it and I did miss it but after eating a breakfast burrito (sugar free foods only used) I felt full and ready for the day. 

 2. I can see already how doing this challenge is going to force me to pay attention to what I am eating. You see sugar is in everything and yesterday it forced me to think about what I was eating.  I did eat less yesterday than I do most days. To be honest it cut out a lot of the snacking and grazing that I normally do during the day.

3. I have to say the hardest part about the day was after dinner. After I was finished eating I was full and felt good but I love to put the kids to bed and have a little treat all to myself. It's like the end to the day. Eating my sweet treat with out interruption or without having to share it. (I know how selfish am I?) I thought about how I was feeling and I wasn't hungry so I didn't need to eat anything. Instead of grabbing food I grabbed some water and guess what I survived. ( holy crap I survived one whole day with out a treat.)  I fought off those cravings even while my husband ate a bowl of ice cream right next to me. I was so proud of myself when I went to sleep last night. Here goes to day two!!

Keep running. Corrine